Yup, that's me to a T. I've read a lot growing up. Everything that had to do with Vampires/Witches, Celtic magic -- everything supernaturals.
They were all dark and considered themselves monsters -- I couldn't find the right one where they were happy to be themselves -- guess what? I wrote it LOL!
Keep busy, always, read, write, fix, proofread -- you know, lather, rinse, repeat ...
Yours in blood,
p.s. I talk of my stories, of course!